In this raw and soul-stirring episode, I share the deep crisis infertility triggered around creativity, purpose, and womanhood. Have you ever asked yourself: Who am I as a woman, if I can’t be a mother? What if I never give birth — will I ever feel the feminine creative energy? Why does my creativity feel blocked when I struggle with infertility? If so, this episode will feel like a warm hand on your shoulder. I invite you into my personal story of my struggle and a moment so dark I nearly threw away every piece of art I ever made. All because a long journey of infertility, IVF and a miscarriage that lead me to believe that I am less of a woman, than women who are able to carry a child in their womb. But then something extraordinary happened — through a conversation within myself and with a tree, I began to reimagine what it means to be a creator. To be a woman. To belong. This episode is for every woman who has questioned her worth, her purpose, or her creative spark. It's for those navigating infertility, grief, and silent comparison. It’s for those longing to birth something beautiful — whether a child, a book, or a version of themselves that feels true again. If you feel broken or stuck in your creative life after loss, this episode is the balm your soul needs. Subscribe on your favorite podcast app and join me on this magical journey of dreaming big and finding joy. For other personal joyful sparkles, join me on Instagram: Bettina In The Clouds (@bettinaintheclouds) (https://www.instagram.com/bettinaintheclouds/) Hosted by Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.

Infertility is a word that holds so much pain, silence, and complexity — and in this deeply personal episode, I finally open up about our entire journey. I share what it has felt like to walk through years of fertility treatments, monthly heartbreaks, and the invisible grief of waiting for a child who hasn’t come. This isn’t a story with a perfect ending — it’s a story in progress. One filled with raw emotions, quiet hope, and the kind of strength you only discover when life doesn’t go as planned. Whether you’re in the middle of your own fertility struggle, supporting someone who is, or simply curious about the emotional layers behind infertility — this episode is for you. This conversation is vulnerable, honest, and tender — shared in the hope that no one else feels alone in this experience. If this episode speaks to you, please consider sharing it with someone who might need it. 💛 ✨ Subscribe on your favorite podcast app and join me on this magical journey of dreaming big and finding joy. For other personal joyful sparkles, join me on Instagram: Bettina In The Clouds (@bettinaintheclouds) (https://www.instagram.com/bettinaintheclouds/) Hosted by Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.

Have you ever planned your life a certain way — only to have unexpected circumstances completely change the course? Maybe you’ve dreamed of traveling, starting a family, or building your ideal future… and suddenly, a door closes. The path you imagined disappears. And you’re left with grief, doubt, and the quiet question: What now? In this deeply personal, cozy podcast café episode, I share my story of one of those moments — how a literal closed road during a day trip in Switzerland became a powerful reminder for life. We’ll gently explore how to cope when life doesn’t go as planned, the grief that comes with letting go of old dreams (especially around infertility and life transitions), and how to start seeing unexpected detours as part of your new, beautiful story. If you’ve ever faced disappointment, grief, or uncertainty — this episode is for you. You’re not alone in longing for answers, struggling with trust, or navigating the heartbreak of changed plans. Let’s sit together for this honest conversation, and remind ourselves that sometimes, the closed path leads to places we never could’ve imagined — even if it takes time to see the beauty. ✨ Subscribe on your favorite podcast app and join me on this magical journey of dreaming big and finding joy. ✉️ Join my Newsletter now Her Heart full of Dreams (https://her-heart-full-of-dreams.kit.com/) for heartfelt stories, creative sparks, and real-life insights that nourish your soul and fuel your dreams— one inspiring email at a time. Your journey starts here. For other personal joyful sparkles, join me on Instagram: Bettina In The Clouds (@bettinaintheclouds) (https://www.instagram.com/bettinaintheclouds/) Hosted by Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.

Have you ever longed for real, meaningful connections — yet felt like making friends as an adult is the hardest thing ever? Especially when you're in a new country, navigating life without children, and carrying the quiet fears and struggles that come with infertility? If yes, then this cozy café podcast episode might feel like a chat with an old friend. In today’s episode I want to talk openly about my struggle to make new, local friends as a childless introvert in my thirties, living in a new country. It’s raw, unfiltered, and probably, very relatable if you're also navigating loneliness or craving a deeper sense of belonging. I’ve been living in Alsace, France, for over a year now, and here’s the truth: I still haven’t made local friends. Not because I don’t want to — but because putting myself out there, as a sensitive, introverted woman dealing with infertility grief, feels overwhelming. Sound familiar? Maybe you're walking a similar path. In this episode, I share: Why craving connection doesn’t always mean finding it’s easy, especially when you’re dealing with infertility, childlessness, or grief. The silent fears that hold me back The powerful insights I learned from books about vulnerability, belonging, and finding real community. This conversation is especially for you, if: ✨ You feel isolated in a new country, town, or phase of life. ✨ You’re childless (by choice or circumstance) and struggle to find your people. ✨ You’re an introvert craving deep, meaningful friendships — but small talk and big groups exhaust you. ✨ You’re navigating infertility, grief, or any life transition that makes connection feel harder. ✨ You long for honest conversations about belonging, courage, and building community as an adult. ✨ Subscribe on your favorite podcast app and join me on this magical journey of dreaming big and finding joy. ✉️ Join my Newsletter now Her Heart full of Dreams (https://her-heart-full-of-dreams.kit.com/) for heartfelt stories, creative sparks, and real-life insights that nourish your soul and fuel your dreams— one inspiring email at a time. Your journey starts here. For other personal joyful sparkles, join me on Instagram: Bettina In The Clouds (@bettinaintheclouds) (https://www.instagram.com/bettinaintheclouds/) Hosted by Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.

Have you ever watched a movie or read a book, and afterward, something deep inside you quietly whispered, “It’s time to believe again”? If you have a heart full of dreams — maybe hidden ones, maybe wild ones — then this cozy podcast café episode is made just for you. In today’s episode, I’m sharing something very close to my heart: the books and movies that sparked my courage to keep going. That help me believe in my dreams — even when I doubt, struggl, or feel stuck. These stories help me reconnect with hope, with action, and with my deeper purpose. And maybe, they’ll do the same for you. This episode is perfect for you if: 💫 You have big dreams but sometimes feel stuck in fear or self-doubt. 💫 You love cozy, soulful conversations with a creative friend. 💫 You adore movies and books that inspire personal growth and reflection. 💫 You’re craving gentle encouragement to take action toward your dream life. ✨ Subscribe on your favorite podcast app and join me on this magical journey of dreaming big and finding joy. ✉️ Join my Newsletter now Her Heart full of Dreams (https://her-heart-full-of-dreams.kit.com/) for heartfelt stories, creative sparks, and real-life insights that nourish your soul and fuel your dreams— one inspiring email at a time. Your journey starts here. For other personal joyful sparkles, join me on Instagram: Bettina In The Clouds (@bettinaintheclouds) (https://www.instagram.com/bettinaintheclouds/) Hosted by Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.

After months of emotional exhaustion, infertility grief after many IVF rounds, and feeling joyless, I found myself staring out the window at grey skies and empty trees, longing for something to change — outside and within. In this episode, I share how I slowly began letting joy back into my life by planting tiny seeds of curiosity: a bookshop visit, a new love for manga, and learning to embrace what once felt "not for me." If you’ve ever felt stuck, numb, or unsure how to begin again, this gentle, soul-filled episode is for you. A story of healing, rediscovery, and the quiet magic of following what lights you up — no matter how small it may seem. Come sit with me, dear dreamer. Let’s talk about joy, creativity, and reclaiming our inner spark. ✨ Subscribe on your favorite podcast app and join me on this magical journey of dreaming big and finding joy. ✉️ Join my Newsletter now here: Her Heart full of Dreams (https://her-heart-full-of-dreams.kit.com/) for heartfelt stories, creative sparks, and real-life insights that nourish your soul and fuel your dreams— one inspiring email at a time. Your journey starts here. Hosted by Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.

In this soulful episode, I invite you to explore how dreams take shape through life's winding journey. If you’ve ever wondered why your passion didn’t arrive with clarity early on, or felt lost trying to uncover your creative purpose, this episode is for you. Through tender storytelling and personal reflection, I share how my “dream creature” evolved—through journals, teaching, infertility, and rediscovering writing. Learn how dreams are born from experience, longing, and listening to life’s whispers, not shouts. Tune in to feel inspired, reconnect with your creativity, and remember: even the tiniest dream is worth bringing to life. ✨ Subscribe on your favorite podcast app and join me on this magical journey of dreaming big and finding joy. ✉️ Join my Newsletter now Her Heart full of Dreams (https://her-heart-full-of-dreams.kit.com/) for heartfelt stories, creative sparks, and real-life insights that nourish your soul and fuel your dreams— one inspiring email at a time. Your journey starts here. Hosted by Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.

Welcome to the very first episode of my podcast – a heartfelt introduction and a window into the stories and dreams that shaped me. In this episode, I share how my husband and I left behind ten years in Switzerland to start a new chapter in the magical villages of Alsace, France. Along the way, I open up about our journey through infertility, deep grief, and the quiet courage it took to begin again. This episode is for you if you’ve ever felt the pull of a dream, the weight of heartbreak, or the longing to create a life that feels more like your own. It’s a tender beginning – one filled with vulnerability, hope, and a reminder that it’s never too late to follow the whisper inside your heart. Come join me in the podcast café for soulful storytelling, gentle encouragement, and the start of something beautiful. ✨ Subscribe on your favorite podcast app and join me on this magical journey of dreaming big and finding joy. ✉️ Join my Newsletter now Her Heart full of Dreams (https://her-heart-full-of-dreams.kit.com/) for heartfelt stories, creative sparks, and real-life insights that nourish your soul and fuel your dreams— one inspiring email at a time. Your journey starts here. Hosted by Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.