Heartbreak nearly killed him. Kevin Crenshaw shares his raw and deeply honest journey through heartbreak, suicidal thoughts, addiction, chronic illness, and losing everything — long before his life ever “looked” like it was falling apart. In this episode of I Am Redemption, Kevin opens up about how heartbreak shattered his identity, how chasing love and relief slowly turned into deeper pain, and how avoidance led him down a path of addiction, mental health collapse, overdoses, homelessness, and a complete loss of self. What started as emotional pain and identity confusion escalated into a full unraveling. Kevin talks candidly about surviving his own mind, losing trust in himself, and hitting moments where he didn’t know if he would make it out alive. Despite near-death experiences, illness, and repeated attempts to escape his pain, Kevin continued to spiral, a reality many people struggling in silence know all too well. This conversation dives into the truth about heartbreak, addiction, and healing, why “high functioning” doesn’t mean healthy, and why awareness alone isn’t enough to change. A significant part of Kevin’s story also centers on his relationship with God, not in a polished or performative way, but in the moments where he had nothing left. He shares how faith entered the picture at his lowest points, how surrender replaced control, and how trusting God became part of rebuilding his life from the ground up. Kevin also talks candidly about: • Heartbreak and identity loss • Suicidal ideation and mental health collapse • Addiction, overdoses, and avoidance • Chronic illness and nervous system burnout • Homelessness and losing everything • Wrestling with God during suffering • Surrender, faith, and letting go of control • Responsibility vs. awareness • Rebuilding from nothing without romanticizing pain This episode is for anyone who: • Appears put together while quietly struggling • Has tied their identity to love, success, or validation • Is surviving instead of truly living • Is sober-curious, in recovery, or facing emotional pain alone • Is questioning faith, meaning, or purpose in the middle of suffering If this conversation resonates, you’re not alone, and there is a way forward. Kevin Crenshaw Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/the.heart.guy I Am Redemption Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/iam.redemption YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@IAmRedemption 👉 Subscribe for weekly episodes and real stories of transformation. 🎧 New episodes of I Am Redemption every week. 📩 If this episode helped you, consider sharing it with someone who needs to hear it. ⏱️ EPISODE CHAPTERS / TIMESTAMPS 00:00 Introduction & Kevin’s story begins 04:30 Heartbreak and losing identity 11:40 Chasing love and avoiding pain 19:20 Mental health collapse & suicidal thoughts 29:10 Addiction, illness, and spiraling 41:50 Homelessness and losing everything 52:40 Wrestling with God and surrender 01:02:30 Faith, responsibility, and rebuilding 01:14:10 Purpose after pain 01:27:00 Final reflections and closing thoughts #MentalHealth #AddictionRecovery #FaithJourney #IAmRedemption Hosted on Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.

This week on I Am Redemption, Shawn Livingston sits down with Terrence Ogden for his second appearance, fresh off an absolutely relentless feat, a 1,000-mile ruck across the entire state of Texas. Joining the conversation is his wife, Anna Ogden, who shares a powerful behind-the-scenes perspective on what life looked like for her and their family during the 40 days Terrence was gone on the road. This episode gives voice to the sacrifices made at home, the uncertainty, emotional weight, and strength required while the mission unfolded mile by mile. Terrence walks us through the ruck from beginning to end, the physical breakdowns, mental battles, unexpected moments, and the deeper purpose that kept him moving forward when quitting would’ve been easier. We also take an intimate look inside Official Project GRIT, their mission, and what’s next as they continue to prove that pain, when given purpose, can change lives. This conversation goes beyond endurance. We dive into Terrence’s past, the experiences that shaped him, and what it truly means to be Built For More, not just in miles, but in life. Built Different by Pain. Powered Different by Purpose. We Are What Comes After. New to the show? Welcome to I Am Redemption, founded by Shawn Livingston — a podcast and community focused on recovery, endurance, mental health, faith, and purpose-driven lives. Here, we don’t hide from our past, we use it. Because what you’ve been through doesn’t define you, what you do after does. Subscribe for weekly episodes with veterans, athletes, creatives, and everyday people who prove that redemption is built, not given. Episode: 00:00 – Introduction 03:05 – Why the 1,000-Mile Ruck Had to Happen 08:40 – Anna’s Perspective: The 40 Days at Home 16:20 – The Mental War of the Miles 27:00 – Physical Breakdown on the Road 39:10 – Unexpected Moments & Support 50:00 – Inside Official Project Grit 1:01:30 – What’s Next 1:10:00 – Built For More: Pain Into Purpose 1:18:00 – Final Reflections #IAmRedemption #TerrenceOgden #OfficialProjectGRIT #BuiltForMore #PainIntoPurpose Hosted on Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.

In this unforgettable episode of I Am Redemption, Lydia Richards opens up like never before. Lydia shares the truth behind her journey through childhood trauma, substance use, mental health struggles, and her experiences working in the sex industry, realities that are far more common than most people realize, yet rarely talked about openly. This conversation is raw, emotional, and unfiltered. At moments, you can literally see Lydia shivering as she recounts the memories that shaped her life. Nothing is sugar-coated. Nothing is held back. This episode isn’t meant to be comfortable, it’s meant to be honest. If you’ve ever lived through trauma, survived addiction, struggled with your mental health, or felt trapped in survival mode, this episode will hit home. Lydia’s story is painful, powerful, and deeply eye-opening, a reminder of what happens when someone finally speaks the truth out loud. New to I Am Redemption? I Am Redemption is a podcast and community hosted by Shawn Livingston, built around real stories of transformation through pain, purpose, fitness, and truth. We don’t tell polished success stories, we tell what comes before the breakthrough. 🎧 New episodes weekly 📍 Based in Austin, Texas 🛡 Built Different by Pain. Powered Different by Purpose. 📌 Episode Topics Include -Childhood trauma and its lasting impact -Substance use and mental health struggles -Experiences working in the sex industry -Living in survival mode -Speaking the truth after years of silence -Turning wounds into purpose 🔗 Connect 🎙 Guest: Lydia Richard 📲 Instagram: @wounds2wealth 🌐 Website: wounds2wealth.com (http://wounds2wealth.com) 🔔 Subscribe & Support If this episode resonates with you: -Subscribe to the channel -Leave a comment - your voice matters -Share this episode with someone who needs it #IAmRedemption #LydiaRichard #WoundsToWealth #TraumaRecovery #MentalHealthAwareness #AddictionRecovery #HealingJourney #RealStories #RedemptionStory #PurposeOverPain Hosted on Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.

When Josh Melching returned home from war, the battle didn’t end. The symptoms of PTSD slowly began to surface. In a very short amount of time, Josh lost some of the closest people in the world to him. Trying to numb the pain, he turned to alcohol, a path that eventually led to serious trouble with the law. Rock bottom came fast. What changed everything wasn’t a shortcut or an escape. It was working with his hands. Josh found an outlet in woodworking. What began as a way to quiet his mind became his purpose. Piece by piece, he started creating handcrafted American flags — each one built with intention, discipline, and meaning. Today, Josh is the owner of Wars End (@wars__end), a veteran-owned brand whose flags are in high demand, helping people commemorate memories, milestones, service, and sacrifice through powerful American craftsmanship. Josh’s heart for giving back is just as strong as his work. He donated a custom flag to I Am Redemption to commemorate our 100th episode, and even more meaningfully, created and donated a flag for our good friend Kayleigh Williamson to honor her invitation to the Special Olympics. This episode is about war, loss, accountability, addiction, healing, and what happens when you decide to turn pain into purpose. This is Josh Melching’s redemption. Welcome to I Am Redemption, hosted by Shawn Livingston. I Am Redemption is a community-driven platform focused on recovery, fitness, mental resilience, and real stories of transformation. We sit down with people who have lived through adversity and chose to build something meaningful with it. Built Different by Pain. Powered Different by Purpose. We Are What Comes After. 🔗 CONNECT WITH JOSH Instagram: @wars__end Veteran-owned | Handcrafted American flags & woodworking 🔗 CONNECT WITH I AM REDEMPTION Instagram: @iam.redemption #IAmRedemption #ShawnLivingston #JoshMelching #VeteranStory #AirForceVeteran #VeteranOwned #PTSDRecovery #PurposeAfterPain #RedemptionStory #MilitaryMentalHealth Hosted on Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.

Most people think danger looks obvious. Sometimes it looks like discipline, fitness… and a daily energy drink. This week on I Am Redemption, Shawn Livingston sits down with San Antonio native, father, trainer, and boxing coach Casey Barnett—a man who looked healthy on the outside while quietly battling pills, alcohol, and isolation for years. After finally confronting his substance use, Casey believed the hardest part was behind him. He re-committed to fitness. He rebuilt his life. By all appearances, he was “back.” Then something no one expected nearly took his life. A daily dependency on energy drinks led to a devastating stroke—at the very peak of his physical condition. In this raw conversation, Casey opens up about: • Hiding addiction behind discipline • Pills, alcohol, and silent isolation • The stroke that nearly killed him • Rebuilding mentally, physically, and spiritually • Why he now chooses to live out loud • Turning pain into purpose to help others This episode is a powerful reminder that not everything dangerous looks destructive, and that real healing requires honesty at every level. 👉 Watch now and hear Casey’s full story. I Am Redemption is a movement built on real stories of transformation. Hosted by Shawn Livingston, this show highlights individuals who’ve walked through pain and chosen purpose, through recovery, fitness, mental health, and rebuilding life from the inside out. We are what comes after. #IAmRedemption #Recovery #MentalHealth #Fitness #Purpose Hosted on Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.

Mitch Ammons’ story is one of the most powerful transformations we’ve ever had on I Am Redemption. Once lost in hardcore addiction, heroin, meth, oxy. Mitch hit rock bottom more times than he can count. But one day he found community… and everything changed. In this raw and unfiltered episode, Mitch sits down with host Shawn Livingston and opens up about: • The darkest moments of his addiction • How community helped pull him out • The run that changed the entire trajectory of his life • Becoming an elite marathoner (2:16 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t2heJkSgo9M&t=136s), Olympic Trials qualifier) • Rebuilding from nothing into marriage, purpose, and a thriving real-estate career in Austin, Texas • How sobriety and movement gave him the life he never believed he deserved If you’re battling addiction, feeling lost, or searching for purpose, Mitch’s journey proves that no one is too far gone. This is redemption, in real time. I Am Redemption is hosted by Shawn Livingston: speaker, ultrarunner, and founder of the Redemption community. This platform exists to show what’s possible when we give purpose to our pain. Every episode highlights real stories of adversity, recovery, and the power of community, movement, and purpose. Instagram: @iam.redemption TikTok: @iam.redemption Run Crew • Community • Events • Challenges Austin, Texas Hosted on Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.

Danielle Cobb returns to I Am Redemption, and this conversation goes deeper than ever. Sobriety wasn’t her final battle. She opens up about the hidden struggle she was still fighting behind the scenes… even when life looked “good” from the outside. We talk about rebuilding her relationship with herself, navigating body image and self-worth, confronting silent internal battles, improving her relationship with food, and stepping into a new season of confidence as she launches her own podcast to help others heal. If you’ve ever felt like you were supposed to be “okay,” but weren’t, this is the episode you needed to hear. Built Different by Pain. Powered Different by Purpose. Real people. Real stories. Recovery, adversity, transformation, and the courage to rebuild. Hosted by Shawn Livingston, founder of I Am Redemption & the Redemption Crew community. We Are What Comes After. Hosted on Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.

Austin Blatt’s story doesn’t start smooth, it starts young, chaotic, and fast. By 15 years old he was already deep in a world most people never walk out of… but this episode is about what came AFTER. Austin rebuilt himself from the ground up, mentally, physically, and spiritually, and turned his past into the foundation of 4D Wellness, a mission-driven fitness and transformation program changing lives in Austin and beyond. This conversation is raw, honest, intense, and full of the real turning points that shaped who he is today. If you’re interested in human transformation, extreme life stories, discipline, or the mindset it takes to rebuild your life, this episode hits home. 🔥 EPISODE CHAPTERS 00:00 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PJE8TL_XKpc) – Introduction 01:00 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PJE8TL_XKpc&t=60s) – Austin’s early life and getting lost young 06:45 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PJE8TL_XKpc&t=405s) – Spiraling fast & the moment everything changed 13:20 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PJE8TL_XKpc&t=800s) – Rebuilding from the ground up 19:00 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PJE8TL_XKpc&t=1140s) – How 4D Wellness was born 27:10 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PJE8TL_XKpc&t=1630s) – What makes 4D different 34:20 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PJE8TL_XKpc&t=2060s) – Discipline, mindset & full transformation 41:45 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PJE8TL_XKpc&t=2505s) – Helping clients change their lives 49:20 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PJE8TL_XKpc&t=2960s) – The power of community & purpose 55:30 (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PJE8TL_XKpc&t=3330s) – Austin’s message for anyone struggling Welcome to I Am Redemption, hosted by Shawn Livingston, a community built on purpose, truth, and transformation. Every week we bring you real stories from athletes, creators, survivors, and leaders who turned their pain into power. Subscribe and become part of the movement. You are not alone, and your story matters. Hosted on Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.

In this special edition episode of I Am Redemption, host Shawn Livingston sits down one-on-one with Brad Dunn, founder of Reliant Fitness, a man whose story is as raw as it is relentless. Brad flew into Austin for Redemption Weekend and joined the live 100th-episode celebration. But before hitting the stage, he sat down with Shawn to unpack his powerful story and views, from battling addiction and rebuilding himself through fitness, to creating a nationwide movement helping dads reclaim their bodies, their confidence, and their purpose. This episode dives deep into what it really takes to overcome adversity after sobriety, to stay hungry in success, and to lead from the front when the world’s watching. 💬 What You’ll Hear: The real story behind Brad’s transformation and how he built Reliant Fitness Sobriety, fatherhood, and the discipline that keeps him grounded How he built one of the most authentic fitness communities online What fuels his brand and how he uses social media to motivate others The mission: helping men, especially dads, take back their lives and get jacked again ⏱ Timestamps: 00:00 – Intro | Redemption Weekend & why Brad’s story matters 03:10 – Brad’s early life and the moment everything changed 07:45 – Overcoming addiction and building discipline through pain 12:30 – Founding Reliant Fitness & discovering his purpose 18:55 – How sobriety shaped his leadership and coaching style 24:10 – Building a social-media brand with integrity and grit 31:40 – Why helping dads matters now more than ever 39:20 – The habits that separate men who talk from men who act 46:15 – The American fitness epidemic and Brad’s call to action 52:00 – Closing thoughts: what’s next for Reliant Fitness and I Am Redemption 🔗 Connect with Brad Dunn / Reliant Fitness: YouTube: @reliant.fitness (http://reliant.fitness) Instagram: @reliant.fitness (http://reliant.fitness) Website / Coaching: reliantfitness.net (http://reliantfitness.net) 🙏 Connect with I Am Redemption: Instagram: @iam.redemption YouTube: @IAm.Redemption ⚡ If This Hit Home: 👍 Like the video 💬 Drop a comment telling us your biggest takeaway 🔔 Subscribe for more stories of resilience, recovery, and redemption #BradDunn #ReliantFitness #IAmRedemption #SobrietyToStrength #DadFitness #RedemptionWeekend #FitnessTransformation #MenWhoLift #DisciplineOverMotivation #GetJackedAgain #ShawnLivingston #PodcastInterview Hosted on Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.

100 Episodes. One Movement. One Unforgettable Night. Part 2 of our 100th Episode celebration takes you LIVE from downtown Austin, Texas at the exclusive Powder Room, where the walls couldn’t contain the energy, emotion, and power of the Sober Girls Group Chat. We opened the night with a deeply heartfelt tribute to Kayleigh Williamson, an athlete redefining resilience. The I Am Redemption community rallied to raise funds supporting her journey to the Special Olympics, a reminder of what happens when purpose meets community. Then, the room came alive with a live performance from I Am Cricchi, setting the stage for a conversation that would become one of the most emotional and impactful moments in I Am Redemption history. When the Sober Girls Group Chat took the mic, they absolutely brought it. Every voice on that stage carried a different story, but one shared message: 👉 We are what comes after. 🌟 Featuring the Powerhouse Voices of Recovery Abbey Fickley - YouTube creator & recovery advocate who turned pain into purpose for millions. Brittany Jade Szabo - viral influencer & mother whose story of addiction and redemption inspires a massive online community. Britt Bernard - advocate for autism awareness & recovery, passionate Philly Eagles fan empowering families. Gabby Egan - viral social media personality with a fearless voice for mental health & sobriety who breaks stigma through transparency. Jeannine Coulter - host of Chasing Heroine, TEDx speaker, & fitness leader with a decade of sobriety. Rachel Elizabeth - mother & hilarious creator whose humor meets healing in recovery. Amanda Crossley - featured on Dr. Phil during her addiction journey, now a voice of faith & resilience. Sara Clark - attorney at law, grounded advocate & truth-teller bringing heart to healing. Each woman brought laughter, tears, and truth - proving that recovery isn’t about what you’ve lost, but what you build from it. 🎙 Host: Shawn Livingston 🎶 Live Performance: I Am Cricchi 📍 Location: The Powder Room | Downtown Austin, TX 💜 Special Tribute: Kayleigh Williamson & The Special Olympics 🔵 WHAT IS I AM REDEMPTION? I Am Redemption is more than a podcast - it’s a movement. We celebrate adversity, recovery, and purpose through real stories that show pain can become power. Every episode reminds us that the past doesn’t define us - it refines us. Join the movement and be part of a community built on truth, healing, and forward motion. 🔥 Subscribe & turn on notifications to be part of a community that gives power to pain once it has purpose. 💬 Drop a comment and tell us your biggest takeaway. 💜 Share this episode with someone who needs hope today. 📲 FOLLOW I AM REDEMPTION Instagram | TikTok | Threads | YouTube Shorts @iam.redemption 🎧 Listen anywhere you get your podcasts Hosted on Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.