#173: I Was Afraid of My Own Power: Lessons From a Bufo Journey | Power and Purpose Podcast

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What happens when the part of you that's been running your life refuses to let go?

In this deeply personal solo episode, I share my third Bufo experience, the powerful ego death that unfolded, and the surprising realization that I had been resisting this medicine for nearly three years because I was afraid of my own power. We explore survival mode, heart-mind coherence, intuition, Kundalini energy, spiritual evolution, and the profound difference between living from fear versus living from alignment.

This conversation isn't about promoting medicine—it's about sharing a personal experience and the insights that emerged from it. If you've ever felt disconnected from yourself, stuck in survival mode, or sensed that a more authentic version of you is trying to emerge, this episode may resonate deeply.

⏰ TIMESTAMPS

00:00 Episode Preview

00:43 Why I Felt Called Back to Bufo After 3 Years

03:13 "I'm Scared of How Powerful I Could Be"

07:42 The Heart-Mind Disconnection That Changed Everything

11:20 My Intense Ego Death Experience

13:03 What Happens to the Brain During Bufo

16:29 Survival Mode vs Soul Alignment

20:03 The Massive Emotional & Energetic Release

23:21 Kundalini Activation & Reclaiming My Power

25:57 Why My Relationship with Western Astrology Is Changing

27:52 Final Reflections & Integration

🎙️ ABOUT THE POWER & PURPOSE PODCAST The Power & Purpose Podcast explores consciousness, spirituality, astrology, human potential, healing, purpose, entrepreneurship, and personal transformation. Through solo episodes and inspiring guest interviews, Vanessa Soul helps listeners reconnect with their authentic path and step into greater alignment with their purpose.

Connect with Vanessa Soul:

🌐 Website: https://vanessasoul.com/Sacredsoulenergetics

📸 Instagram: https://instagram.com/vanessaasoul

📺 YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@VanessaSoulWork

📘 Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/vanessa.spiva.9

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Power and Purpose Podcast with Vanessa Soul

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Hosted by Vanessa Soul — astrologer, intuitive healer, and purpose coach — this show sits at the intersection of ancient wisdom and modern ambition. Vanessa brings mastery in astrology, Human Design, IFS therapy, energetic work, and somatic healing to every conversation, helping conscious leaders and spiritual entrepreneurs step fully into their power, their purpose, and their next level.

This is not self help lite.

This is the conversation that changes you.

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About Power and Purpose Podcast

Power and Purpose Podcast with Vanessa Soul

Most people are awake. Few are truly free.

Over 160 episodes deep. No filler. No performance. No surface level conversations.

This is not self help lite.

This is the conversation that changes you.

New episodes every week. Subscribe and come find your episode.

Hosted on Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.

Description

What happens when the part of you that's been running your life refuses to let go?

⏰ TIMESTAMPS

00:00 Episode Preview

00:43 Why I Felt Called Back to Bufo After 3 Years

03:13 "I'm Scared of How Powerful I Could Be"

07:42 The Heart-Mind Disconnection That Changed Everything

11:20 My Intense Ego Death Experience

13:03 What Happens to the Brain During Bufo

16:29 Survival Mode vs Soul Alignment

20:03 The Massive Emotional & Energetic Release

23:21 Kundalini Activation & Reclaiming My Power

25:57 Why My Relationship with Western Astrology Is Changing

27:52 Final Reflections & Integration

Connect with Vanessa Soul:

🌐 Website: https://vanessasoul.com/Sacredsoulenergetics

📸 Instagram: https://instagram.com/vanessaasoul

📺 YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@VanessaSoulWork

📘 Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/vanessa.spiva.9

Listen to the Power and Purpose Podcast:

🎧 Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/7itutYtXv9lVJQZcjcdg7C

🎧 Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/power-and-purpose-podcast/id1713095352

Hosted on Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.

About Power and Purpose Podcast

Power and Purpose Podcast with Vanessa Soul

Most people are awake. Few are truly free.

Over 160 episodes deep. No filler. No performance. No surface level conversations.

This is not self help lite.

This is the conversation that changes you.

New episodes every week. Subscribe and come find your episode.

Hosted on Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.

About Power and Purpose Podcast

Power and Purpose Podcast with Vanessa Soul

Most people are awake. Few are truly free.

Over 160 episodes deep. No filler. No performance. No surface level conversations.

This is not self help lite.

This is the conversation that changes you.

New episodes every week. Subscribe and come find your episode.

Hosted on Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.

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What happens when the part of you that's been running your life refuses to let go?

⏰ TIMESTAMPS

00:00 Episode Preview

00:43 Why I Felt Called Back to Bufo After 3 Years

03:13 "I'm Scared of How Powerful I Could Be"

07:42 The Heart-Mind Disconnection That Changed Everything

11:20 My Intense Ego Death Experience

13:03 What Happens to the Brain During Bufo

16:29 Survival Mode vs Soul Alignment

20:03 The Massive Emotional & Energetic Release

23:21 Kundalini Activation & Reclaiming My Power

25:57 Why My Relationship with Western Astrology Is Changing

27:52 Final Reflections & Integration

Connect with Vanessa Soul:

🌐 Website: https://vanessasoul.com/Sacredsoulenergetics

📸 Instagram: https://instagram.com/vanessaasoul

📺 YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@VanessaSoulWork

📘 Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/vanessa.spiva.9

Listen to the Power and Purpose Podcast:

🎧 Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/7itutYtXv9lVJQZcjcdg7C

🎧 Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/power-and-purpose-podcast/id1713095352

Hosted on Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.

About Power and Purpose Podcast

Power and Purpose Podcast with Vanessa Soul

Most people are awake. Few are truly free.

Over 160 episodes deep. No filler. No performance. No surface level conversations.

This is not self help lite.

This is the conversation that changes you.

New episodes every week. Subscribe and come find your episode.

Hosted on Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.

About Power and Purpose Podcast

Power and Purpose Podcast with Vanessa Soul

Most people are awake. Few are truly free.

Over 160 episodes deep. No filler. No performance. No surface level conversations.

This is not self help lite.

This is the conversation that changes you.

New episodes every week. Subscribe and come find your episode.

Hosted on Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.

Description

What happens when the part of you that's been running your life refuses to let go?

⏰ TIMESTAMPS

00:00 Episode Preview

00:43 Why I Felt Called Back to Bufo After 3 Years

03:13 "I'm Scared of How Powerful I Could Be"

07:42 The Heart-Mind Disconnection That Changed Everything

11:20 My Intense Ego Death Experience

13:03 What Happens to the Brain During Bufo

16:29 Survival Mode vs Soul Alignment

20:03 The Massive Emotional & Energetic Release

23:21 Kundalini Activation & Reclaiming My Power

25:57 Why My Relationship with Western Astrology Is Changing

27:52 Final Reflections & Integration

Connect with Vanessa Soul:

🌐 Website: https://vanessasoul.com/Sacredsoulenergetics

📸 Instagram: https://instagram.com/vanessaasoul

📺 YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@VanessaSoulWork

📘 Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/vanessa.spiva.9

Listen to the Power and Purpose Podcast:

🎧 Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/7itutYtXv9lVJQZcjcdg7C

🎧 Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/power-and-purpose-podcast/id1713095352

Hosted on Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.

About Power and Purpose Podcast

Power and Purpose Podcast with Vanessa Soul

Most people are awake. Few are truly free.

Over 160 episodes deep. No filler. No performance. No surface level conversations.

This is not self help lite.

This is the conversation that changes you.

New episodes every week. Subscribe and come find your episode.

Hosted on Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.

About Power and Purpose Podcast

Power and Purpose Podcast with Vanessa Soul

Most people are awake. Few are truly free.

Over 160 episodes deep. No filler. No performance. No surface level conversations.

This is not self help lite.

This is the conversation that changes you.

New episodes every week. Subscribe and come find your episode.

Hosted on Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.

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